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Wednesday, June 20, 2012

EBM : cabaran dan dugaan

hmmm...sebenarnye lama dah niat nak story about this, tp disebabkan kekangan masa...lambat la skit. 

Everything start smoothly... till in May i found that my EBM stock is running out... only 14 bottles left that time. OMG. mcm mane bleh x perasan ni. starting from Mac  i've been very2 bz...site meeting every 2 weeks, my master's  subjects that requires many assignments... with 3 classes a week... i just manage to pump once a day, i got only 5-8oz. But Hafiy consume 10oz per day and 15 oz for day & night on the day that i have class...imagine...panic! Mama advice to mkn kuning telur mentah + madu. seelok-eloknya telur ayam kampung. tp kalo xde, telur biasa pon bleh. Mama suh mkn every day, tp kalo takut panas, selang sehari pon ok. Mula2 aku x sanggup gak nak telan, tp memikirkan anak, telan jela. Hmmm...not bad, kuning telur tu bila campur madu die akan jd masak separuh. sedap je. And starting from May, i tried to anyhow pump twice a day... lantak la bos nak memekik cari ke, tefon berdering x berjawab ke....lantak! Tekad... Hari yg ade class, i pump 3 times, usually at 11am, 3.30pm & after class 9.30 pm. Tp yg kul 3.30 pm tu slalu gagal...keje kene settlekan sbb nak blk on time, kalo tak lambat plak masuk kelas, so aku akan pump dlm kete odw ke kelas. Pump yg aku ade tu spectra je pon. Aku x selesa buat double pumping, slalu single pumping je tp aku buat selang seli, kejap kanan, kejap kiri. Dlm kete celah mana lak nak cucuk plag tuh...manual la beb! lenguh tangan2 ni..demi Hafiy mama tabahkan hati. Abis kelas, pam lg...manual gak. so a day i manage to get 10-15oz. Tu utk cover daily consumption jerk...stock skrang cume ade 6 x 5oz. 

Since monday, aku demam + batuk plak...mkn ubat, mkn supplement, tetibe bile pam mcm merundum... semalam la paling ketara. Aku mc...so dr pg sampai ptg aku ngan Hafiy kat umah, direct feed jela. Pg tu bila Hafiy tido, aku pam jap...dpt 1oz je....sedih. Dlm hati ckp maybe sbb aku direct feed arini kot. Fine...ptg antar Hafiy ke umah nanny die, sbb ade kelas. Odw gi kelas pam lg, dpt 1oz gak...sedih. tp x nak pikir...Hubby ckp lepas kelas kang try lg. Lepas kelas pam dpt la dlm 2.5oz...terus aku nangis! Sejak 2-3 hari kebelakangan ni aku sensitif skit...x tau nape. Cepat terasa hati, emosional skit. Bertambah2 la berjurai air mata, dlm hati "Hafiy...Hafiy...Hafiy..." mcm putus cinta tahu! sedih membayangkan kalo x bf Hafiy lg...owh...x sanggup. Pikir jugak agaknye masa Hafiy direct feed cukup ke eh...kenyang tak die. Setakat ni xde la ngamok2 time ngepeng tu. Arini aku stop mkn ubat, supplement... pg ni aku pam, alhamdulillah dpt 5.5oz. petang ni dpt 4 oz je =(  "farhana, keep on pumping" usaha + tawakal.


deep inside my heart..i still believed Allah tahu niat aku...and x kan hampakan aku... 
tp aku x tau perancanganNya utk aku & Hafiy. Wish me luck...


p/s: aku mmg xde idea nak beli fm ape kalo tetibe xde susu...adeh.


3 comments:

  1. Anne, in ur case, obviously its the demand n supply plus tiredness n exhausted...the only way is to pump more frequently bcz frequent pumpinh significantly send out signs to the brain that demand is there..since keje x menentu bz plus class sume, aku suggest ko find some times, a couple of quality times per weeks, buat power pumping. That might help. Not instanteneously, but over the time, insyaAllah u'll regain ur supply..klu boleh, dont reduce ur pumping session.

    Aku not so into milk boosters, so, got no comment on that. Sbb ape yg aku faham, basically its about demand n supply..klu supplement utk gain energy, might be helpful so that kite x rase fatigue, n still got enough energy to keep on pumping n bf-ing.

    U need to relax a bit n try to not get stressed up sbb those factors affect milk supply..insyaAllah, things can be solved.

    These few days, aku dah stop direct feed faheem...sobs :'(...nk taip ni pun b'genang airmata..sbbnye, lately lepas bf faheem, nipple aku pedih sgt2. Ms bf rase biase je. Tp right after bf, pedih teramat smpai aku nangis sbb x thn. Mule2 ingt one side je. Rupenye both sides pun mcm tu. Then koben ckp, x pe la. After this, stop bf faheem..adehhh...da meleleh airmate...now faheem solely rely on fm...pity him...

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  2. mcm2 mknn bley jd milk booster.. cuma xtau mana yg sesuai dgn kita..

    soya, oat, roti putih gardenia, jagung, sayur hijau,habbatus sawda..

    skang ni, i mkn shaklee n habbatus sawda..

    sejak mula menyusukan aqil, x smpat nak rasa bengkak susu. sbb aqil kerap sgt menyusu.. sejak makan habbatus sawda seminggu ni, baru la merasa bengkak susu wpun aqil still kerap menyusu..

    cuba la.. selalu beli kapsul habbatus sawda ngn kak su, kiosk kat anjung tu

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  3. cuba buat power pumping.seminggu sekali pun ok.saya pun takde stok pun.pump hr ni utk esok.yakin & berdoa bahawa ianya cukup.anak u dh mkn solid food kan? lebihkan makanan.tak perlu bergantung 100% pd susu sahaja.

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